Journey to One More

Do you sometimes find that, when you have a goal, you fixate on it so much you can't think about or do anything else? The fear that even the slightest distraction will ruin everything and you feel you have to keep thinking and focusing on your goal? This is a bad idea because it's now no longer a goal, but an obsession and you end up living in fear, stress and doubt, which are all enemies and unnecessary on this journey, or any health journey. Obsession is never a good thing, even over something good.  I realized I've obsessed not just about another child, but generally during my lifetime, for example about relationships and friendships.  I've found that when I start obsessing over people, the friendship goes south because i start to annoy not only them but work myself up, disappoint myself, etc. Why did I do this? Because I was rather silly in my younger years, but also because I wanted to be popular and be liked by a lot of people. I felt if I didn't obsess over t...

  Similar to Purple Power, except that this time I also added cherries, grapejuice and ginger to the mix. I love to spice up my smoothies and juices :-) Yet another smoothie which is good for gut health :)

  Here is a smoothie recipe i tried recently, not only is it delicious but good for the guts too! What you need: Blueberries Yogurt Honey Prune Juice Ice Method: blend all the ingredients in a blender or smoothie maker. Enjoy! I made some small amendments to the recipe and added Passion Fruit, and didn't add ice cubes- as I've learnt from Chinese medicine, its better to keep the body warm than cold with frozen drinks, which was why i skipped the ice. One time, i even added some chopped prunes, but they have to be chopped up VERY WELL, otherwise the segments stick to the bottom or you get a mouthful of chewy segments!

This morning I was absolutely gutted.  Why? Because my monthly arrived today. A week late. Now, this probably wouldn't be seen as bad, because having a monthly means everything is working, right? Not when I just started to have faith that it was becoming regular- after all, I have been looking after myself better since January, eating better, sleeping well, taking my meds more seriously, cutting back on sugar- so really, my period should be improving, right? Wrong. What was worse, I had some pain in my hips during my fertile days and last week, I was getting cramps without actually bleeding-which made me think, what if, just want if: I'd finally done it, it had worked out? After all, I'd been feeling so positive since January, until yesterday, surely that has some effect? But no, fate decided to play with me again- just when I thought i had gotten everything right this time, fate was going to swipe the mat from underneath my feet in a 'haha, only kidding, you're not...